core/dump

If you want to follow my google calander I am putting in the dragoncon events I am attending so Click here to see it!

I am outta here! If you want to keep track of stuff…

• My Flickr is http://www.flickr.com/photos/soulhuntre/
• My Twitter is http://www.twitter.com/soulhuntre

But frankly, my FriendFeed is bringing it all together at http://www.friendfeed.com/soulhuntre

Enjoy the weekend and if your dying to give me a shout out, call 201.830.1586 just for fun!

Less than 4 days have passed since I put a big ass dragon on my arm. The dragon itself is a variation on the concept known as the Leviathan. Why did I choose this art? Because it describes my views on power well… when it is all going right it is below the surfaces gliding freely and effortlessly. When it has to breech the surface, it does so unflinchingly. This is relevant because this is one of those times. Much sooner than I would have expected that power has had to remind us all that there can be no compromise on some things. I will look it all straight in the eye.

As many of you know Kimiko has been in my continuous service for much more than a decade. In addition to this I have also considered her my property for much of that. Last but by no means least Kimiko is family, and she is one of my girls. She has been my friend and my confidant. Of those three relationships (property, servant and Daddy’s girl) that existed at least in theory when I woke up this morning only one remains.

I stopped considering Kimiko my property earlier this afternoon when it became clear to me that she no longer could replace her own judgment with my own. There were limits to how far Kimiko would follow an order that I would not accept.

Later in the day, we spent time trying to decide if she could remain in my service. There is more flexibility in service than there is in ownership so this might have been possible. The opportunity to remain in my service at this time collapsed a little while ago when it became clear that Kimiko has violated the honor of this house by having an affair.

Why blog about this? I speak and educate often on topics related to “extreme dominance”. This is not really a term I use myself but it is one others use to describe my ideas. The core concept of which I speak is the uncrossable line. What do you do when faced with a “this far and no further” choice. My stance on this is what people often mean when they call me “extreme”. Many have listened to me speak on these things… and some have told me that they are following my example. They have often asked me how  should someone react in a situation like this.

Here then is my answer and my action: When pushed, you will either hold fast to your ideals or you will not. I will and I have. 

There will be people looking at this situation (the BDSM community is small, this will no doubt make the rounds) who will wonder how this relates to another topic I speak on – poaching. I have said in the past that the sanctity of a collar is only as important to me as my relationship with the dominant who owns it. I owe no one the privilege of recognizing their domain unless they have earned that from me. In all the world there are only a very small handful of people who are not in my household who I would never cross because they are my pack and a scattering of others who I consider allies and thus protected by what amounts to “treaty”.

Everyone else is to some extent fair game. This reality is harsh, honest and unpopular but frankly trying to stay popular is the least of my issues this evening.

In my own turn I do not blame the poacher who was on my land. They owed me no loyalty. They owed me no allegiance of any kind. My property was, by my standards, fair game for them. Had the situations been reversed I would have not hesitated a moment to take something from them if I wanted it. They have earned my enmity by acting against my interests – but that enmity is not motivated by anger or a feeling of betrayal. They owed me nothing, and so I am not angry or betrayed by them.

The sanctity of my domain is solely my responsibility and I will make no appeal to the good nature of others to protect it nor will I place any claim of brotherhood or kinship on those who are not my allies or friends. This incident will not change that. So there we are. My ownership will accept no boundaries – and thus it is ended. My house will accept no betrayal, and thus her service is ended. Exactly as I always held it had to be.

However Daddy endures. In a recent episode of Power in Practice we spoke of what “Daddy" was to us. In that I mentioned that Daddy is there for me because Daddy can love when Ownership cannot. Daddy can forgive what Ownership cannot. Daddy can endure and survive. Daddy is our safety net. Daddy is our salvation.

I love Kimiko and have for a long time. I don’t see that changing in the future. She will hopefully remain here with me and we will work on the fears and confusion that brought her to make these horribly misguided decisions. When and if she has grown and changed enough then maybe we work back into the rest of it. In the meantime she will do her chores, we will be together and that will be enough.

I would like to thank Kimiko’s sister and my other baby girl Tatsumi for her understanding and support today. She is awesome.

A recent email discussion on Fetlife brought up this quotation again…

"I swear by my life and my love of it that I will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for mine" - John Galt from Atlas Shrugged, page 676 by Ayn Rand

I have discussed it from the dominant and submissive perspectives. If you haven’t seen them you may want to check out the posts.

• Ask not…
• …live my life for another

The other day the comment system here at core / dump let me know that there was a new comment on an old, old post. It was my old pal “Master Eso” who must have been out there Googling himself or something. Anyway, he dropped a note just to let me know that in all the intervening years he managed to still be a humorless prig.

Now this is only worth a mention because of a recent post on FetLife, from which I will quote myself…

“Oh hell… everyone I know in BDSM who is even a little bit interesting has a 5 to 1 ratio of people who would say bad things about them vs. people who would give a good "reference". – me

That about covers it.

I just posted this on a fetish website where the usual panicked discussions were going on about censoring discussion of certain fetishes. Predictably, while not one of the fetishes in question involved child molestation it showed up as the scary monster under the bed as it always does when someone wants you to back down from your support of free thought.

Here was my reply…

(ed note: I made a few minor textual changes on re-read to remove some course language and clarify one sentence… this post will be on the web forever and neither a misunderstanding or an obscenity is needed to make my point)

Here is where the rubber of freedom hits the road of panic and the desire of some to criminalize the thoughts of others.

I will be very, very clear. I absolutely object to any attempt to criminalize thoughts and fantasies regardless of their content. That includes molesting kids, murdering nuns, killing baby seals, blowing up a tall building or bringing down a nation.

Criminalizing actions that specifically violate the rights of others? That I support. As applied to the panic button topic of child molestation that means I reject the criminalization of art, communication or erotica about the topic but I absolutely support the criminalization of an adult having sex with a child.

See the line? Crimes are things that happen in REALITY. Things that happen in fantasy I do not support criminalizing.

The supreme court I might add is not at all convinced that criminalizing fantasy is a good idea either. Many of the challenges to the overly broad and repeatedly struck down "Child Online Protection Act" are on just this issue.

One of the interesting things about this discussion (and in fact any discussion involving the defense of freedom even in unpopular extremes) is that it almost always follows a pattern…

• An extreme topic is chosen (child molestation, terrorism, racism or whatever it doesn’t matter really)

• The assertion is made that anyone who thinks such a thing is dangerous and sick

• Anyone who defends freedom of thought on principle is cast as clearly either lying or being a secret member of the evil group in question and thus suspect

Overall? That means few people will stand up and defend free thought. They are intimidated and afraid of being cast as a molester, terrorist or whatever. To hell with that crap.

My answer, point blank, is that yes. I fully support and defend the rights of law abiding humans who have never acted on the fantasy to sit around at night masturbating to thoughts of having sex with the underage. I also fully support the rights of someone to sit in their house at night dreaming about bombing an airport. I fully support the freedom of someone to sit around at night dreaming about raping that hot actress on TV. THINK about what you want… hell, even get together with others and talk about how hot it all is. Draw pictures, write video games. Whatever.

When you cross the line from fantasy to reality I will come down on you like a f_cking hammer. Till then? What happens in your head is your own business.

Not only do I consider that an essential component of freedom on an ethical level - but as a practical one it is a critical line as well. As soon as the government starts criminalizing thought things get very bad very fast. We have seen that with many of the current thought crime laws (they call it "hate crime legislation" these days) and the havoc it has wrought on any concept of justice in the court system.